What it Means to Wait

If you’re like me, silence and stillness can make you lose your mind. It can drive you absolutely crazy and make you feel like the time for noise and movement might never come. In this time of waiting and anticipating, I have to remind myself not to plan the outcomes. With COVID-19 the world has been shut down and my plan for the future is up in the air, but I have to continually remind myself not to plan the outcomes. I have to remind myself that I cant plan for the good or the bad news that may come in July. If I am trusting my future to the hands of the Lord I have to remind myself that the fruit of the spirit is patience. 

While these past few months have been months of radical and destabilizing change, especially in concern to the World Race, I have become learned in the ways of handling uprooting plans. In those times I have to turn my eyes and my thoughts towards the ways the Lord has used my patience and my destabilization for his glory and my good. I remind myself that when I was worried about reaching my fundraising goal I had to sit and to wait for the Lord to bring me the people who were willing and able to support me and that he not only allowed me to reach it he allowed it to be multiplied. I remind myself that when I was unsure of how to go forward and how to reach people without being in their midst I waited and the Lord brought me someone who showed me how to connect to the people who love and support me. I know the Lord is good and I look to these things and remember these times of waiting and destabilization and know that he used them. I know that at this time, where the waiting and the not knowing is the most crushing I have faced, that the Lord is working and that he is bringing me something far greater than I could imagine. 

I know what it means to wait and to be patient because I do it with the knowledge and the hope that the Lord is working. I know that whatever news I receive in July I will not plan for the worst or best case scenario I will plan for the will of God and go forward with his guidance.