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It’s been quite some time since my last blog, and I feel that it’s safe to say that my waiting is over. It’s really far from over actually, as these last few months have been some of the most turbulent this year. I spent months not really knowing what was going to happen with my future until I was finally given the options: drop out of the race entirely, go to Gainesville for 4 months and then possibly go out onto the field for 6 months, only go for 6 months in January, or to defer. I was understandably shaken by the choices and I spent time thinking and rethinking them and then thinking about them some more. 

I definitely knew I wasn’t going to drop out because I’d been planning on doing the WR for 5 years. I had to remember that I was choosing to go on the trip so that I could share the love of Jesus by serving others. I totally could have done that in Georgia, but I know that there are more than enough resources available to people there, and I love that they came up with the alternative of leadership training for those four months, but it just kind of happened that I began an internship at my church with a feature being leadership training. I also realized that people are struggling financially right now due to COVID and after praying about it for a while it still really didn’t make sense to continue fundraising. I could have waited until January to go, but if I was already going to be waiting I figured I could hold out a little longer and get the full 9-month experience. I talked to supporters, my pastors, my family, my friends and I really struggled with making the decision to defer. Especially because I knew it would put me in a position of uncertainty about this next year I was supposed to be on the race.

 I was really struggling with leaving my plan for this year. I was going to end up leaving my girls who I’d really grown to love, and though I know I’ll get to watch them from the sidelines, I’ll miss the plans that we made for our time together. They are some of the most faithful young women I know, and they’re going to do great things in Georgia and beyond. My family, my friends, my church family, and all of my supporters have been extremely supportive of my decision and I’m extremely grateful of their understanding.  The last thing I had to deal with was what on earth I was going to do with a whole year, and after a lot of extremely stressful paperwork and administrative junk that truly only the Lord could have helped me through, I was enrolled in community college and I will be working on my associate’s degree. 

Now that I’m committed to Gap Year 2021, I got a whole new squad with amazing young women I’m excited to get to know more, and completely different ministry locations I’m looking forward to serving in. Though I’m saddened by the loss of my plan, my squad, and my certainty, I am ready to keep going. 


“There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind.”
– C.S. Lewis

One comment

  1. You are blessed to have such insight and I’m continually impressed by your perseverance. So proud of you!

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